How can you stand
Not talking to me a day
Not seeing me
While you say i am the only thing
The only thing you want
The only thing that's important
While you say you care
More than anyone
While you say you love me the most
You need me the most
And yet when i can't stand passing a day without you
You are perfectly fine with it
You don't have time for me
You'd live the same without me
Let's not fool ourselves.

Things that i can't tell you right now

I miss your warmth

I really dont want to live like this

Do you feel me? Or you just send things or say things randomly and it fits?

It kills me that i cant talk to you but i just cant. 

I cant say. What i think.

(sometimes people make me lose my belief, i'm sorry, you should convince me back but i cant talk to you and you dont even know)

Loving you
Best thing
But also the hardest
Loving is not,
Because you are the sweetest
With the best eyes
Lips
Approach towards me
The most delicate approach
So loving you wasn't hard at all
Because you are the loveliest
But it's hard not being with you always
Not spending time with you always
Not being able to share always
Because that's what love is
You find someone
Who you want to share with
Share everything
Your life
That's the most a human can give
Her/his life
Time
How intimate it is to be volunteering to
Give someone something limited you have
And you also don't know how limited it is
Maybe it's too short
But you are willing to give that away no matter what
Because it means
Them
And I think
It's the best place your time can be
The safest place
With them.

Some Nights

Some nights are silent
So silent that i hear my pain
The pain in my heart
Caused by the absence
Lack of you in my life
Makes me ache
Some times, i forget
I really do
But these nights
Silent ones, uninterrupted
They come in waves
Like Tsunamis
And i drown
Subside, sink to the bottom
The bottom of my feelings
And just wait for you
So you can take the pain away

Love

You are the purest wish
Wanting you doesnt hurt
You not being here hurts
You not being able to come
When i need
When i want you
Hurts

Whatever you do
Either you make me fly
Like a cloud
So peaceful and happy
Or you make me ache
Even if its a little thing
Because even little pieces
Of the brokenness
Can hurt baby

I know
Its not easy
Having the most fragile thing
I own
Thats why even little things
Can hurt, because its so delicate
It needs care
Sometimes you forget that
But you will learn
We will grow and come out
Of this
Together
Because you know why?
You love me
I love you
As not in words
But also in a reality
That i know exist but i cant show
I cant explain